Total pages in book: 61
Estimated words: 60268 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 301(@200wpm)___ 241(@250wpm)___ 201(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 60268 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 301(@200wpm)___ 241(@250wpm)___ 201(@300wpm)
Which they never did because she hadn’t taken his advice, and been too damn upset to hear she wasn’t going to get pregnant so easily. She’d watched women get pregnant, and not even want children, yet she couldn’t, and they were having lots of sex.
Hardy was silent for several minutes.
“You mean to tell me that during our time of separation because I wasn’t using my dick, I built my sperm up higher than usualand we were just lucky that we hit the right time.”
Rose nodded. “Daniels said if you’ve not been masturbating, and there hasn’t been any cheating or anything, you’d have accumulated up enough sperm, and if we had unprotected sex during a month that I released an egg, we increased the chances of my becoming pregnant. He said it was the luck of the draw. Some couples just need luck.”
“All this time we could have already had kids,” Hardy said.
“Yes.” She stared down at her lap, knowing all of their problems lay at her door. “Daniels isn’t happy that I hadn’t listened to him. He says we don’t pay him to be ignored.”
“What the fuck, Rose?”
“I’m sorry.”
“No, you were fucking sobbing on my shoulder because we couldn’t get pregnant. I fucked a woman I couldn’t stand. Ten years we could have been a family.”
“I’m sorry.”
He stopped, took a breath, and closed his eyes.
Rose remained silent, not wanting to interrupt his moment.
“We’re pregnant?” He finally spoke after a couple of minutes had passed.
“We’re pregnant. It’s bizarre. We were always screwing trying to get pregnant, we couldn’t get pregnant, then you cheated, and we moved on, yet this time, it was luck.” She shrugged. “I guess you can never really time these things. I’m really sorry, Hardy.”
“It’s over, Rose. We can’t change what happened, we can only accept it, and we’ve both made mistakes. Fucking hell. I can’t believe we’re finally pregnant,” Hardy said, grabbing her hand.
“We’re going to have a baby.” This had been the last thing she ever expected. No matter what happened, she couldn’t change their relationship. “It doesn’t change anything, Hardy.”
He paused. “Rose, you’re not going to push me out of our kid’s life.”
“I know. I just, I don’t know what to do with us.” She looked between them, pointing at his chest then her own. They had both fucked up, and she accepted that. Rose didn’t want to go back to what they had.
“Don’t do this, Rose.”
“I can’t stop.”
“No, you’ve got to stop. For fuck’s sake, it was ten years ago. I’m not holding shit over you.”
“And it still happened. I never cheated on you. I never fucked another man. I’ve never been with another man,” she said.
He got up, storming away. She watched him start to pace from one of the room to another.
“This isn’t going to work between us.” Rose was more convinced now than ever before. They’d gone from being young, to being set in their ways. They were two different people.
“All these months I thought we were growing closer, but it wasn’t what you wanted. You were using me, weren’t you?” he asked,
There was a short distance between them, and Rose struggled to swallow past the lump in her throat. “Yes.”
“I fucked up, Rose, and I’m more than sorry about that.”
“We can’t change it.”
“Exactly. We can’t change the fucking fact that I fucked another woman. I was young, I was stupid, a selfish bastard, and it’s my biggest regret. I’ve not looked at another woman, Rose. I’ve not looked at another woman in ten years. I’ve not wanted another woman. The only one I want is you.” He dropped back down in front of her, cupping her face. “Don’t do this to us.”
“I don’t know what to do, Hardy.”
“Give me a chance. I fucked up all those years ago. I shouldn’t have gone to that fucking party with you. I shouldn’t have let you change who you are. I love you. You’re my life, my soul, the fucking air I breathe is because of you. Don’t take that away from me, please.”
She saw the sincerity in his eyes. When she was in his arms the world fell away, and she didn’t have to remember the pain or what it meant. Rose wanted to be in his arms again.
“We can try.”
Hardy let out a gasp, tugging her into his arms.
“No, Hardy, we’ve got to take it slow,” she said, pressing a hand to his chest. “I don’t want to just rush into anything. We’ve got to take it steady.”
He pressed a hand to her stomach. “I swear to you, baby, I’m not going to let you down. I’m going to make you proud.”
“I want to head back home. I’m tired and really want to relax,” she said.
“Shit, what did the doctor say? Are you at risk of losing our baby?”
“Please, stop.” She held her hand up, smiling. “I’m fine. Everything is fine. I’ve just been stressed out a little lately.”