Total pages in book: 61
Estimated words: 60268 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 301(@200wpm)___ 241(@250wpm)___ 201(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 60268 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 301(@200wpm)___ 241(@250wpm)___ 201(@300wpm)
Her attention was brought back to Hardy as he pushed clothes off a chair, and dragged it over toward her.
“What’s going on?” she asked.
“Nothing. You’re going to tell me exactly what the fuck is going on ‘cause I’m so fucking confused right now.” He took her hands within his, and Rose didn’t have the heart to pull away. She’d been in so much shock since she’d visited the doctor’s office. The doctor had made sure she repeated every single word after him, then recited back to him exactly what he’d said after he finished. “You told me we couldn’t get pregnant. Now you’re saying we are.”
Rose licked her lips. “How do you know it’s yours?” Bitch. Rose gritted her teeth, hating what she’d said. There was a time when they had been happy. You’d been happy even after everything that had happened. Rose, at first, had believed she could blame all of their problems on Hardy. The truth was, she had to take her fair share of the blame. Fighter had made her do some reflecting in the past couple of weeks when it came to her life with Hardy. She’d blamed Hardy for changing her, and the truth was, she’d changed herself. After the woman died, and took the baby with her, Rose had been so overcome by fear of losing Hardy that she’d done what she believed he wanted, to become like the woman he’d cheated on her with. She hadn’t gone screwing other men. No, Rose had worn skimpy clothing, and become part of The Skulls, giving Hardy everything he wanted. He’d not asked her to do it, but he’d also not asked her to stop what she was doing either.
There was no way for her to change what happened, only try to fix the damage that had been done. They were pregnant now, and it was all her own fault for not listening to her doctor.
He glared at her. “Rose, you’re many things, but fucking several men at the same time is not one of them. If you were ever going to do that, you’d have done it years ago when I fucking deserved it. The only person who is the father of that baby, is me.”
She was so happy he didn’t question the father of her baby. After the past year of being separated, there had been many things said to each other in the heat of the moment. He had to at least still trust her, or know that she wasn’t the type of person to sleep around. She had only ever been with him, and Rose knew she wouldn’t have any other man but him.
“I talked to Doctor Daniels. He’s the one who has been seeing me for the past ten years.” Not that she’d kept that many appointments with him. From the moment she’d known Sandy, she’d gotten any advice from her. Sandy was once a club whore, who also happened to be a doctor.
“I remember him. He’s the guy I go to for my checkups.”
She took a deep breath. “Well, it turns out I, erm, I kind of stopped listening to him all those years ago.” It was stupid of her, but she’d been so caught up in her own little world that the moment Daniels told her it would be impossible to get pregnant, she’d tuned out. Her world at the time had felt like it was caving in, and she had wanted to leave.
“Stopped listening to him?”
Rose was so embarrassed. “Well,” she stopped to let out a little chuckle, “it seems I could get pregnant, but Daniels said it would be near impossible for me to get pregnant. I heard impossible, and I just tuned out at the time.” She’d been so heartbroken that she’d not paid any attention to him talking, and his advice. Hearing the word “impossible” had shut her down. It wasn’t an excuse. She’d been young, stupid, married, and scared. They had been trying for a baby for a long time, and she’d been nagging Hardy over and over again. To not get pregnant, and keep on trying, then to be told impossible, she’d felt broken.
“Okay, if it’s near impossible then, what’s changed?” Hardy asked.
“Nothing. Nothing has changed. What Daniels actually said was it would be near impossible for me to get pregnant. However, if we took extreme lengths, I could in fact get pregnant.”
“I’m really fucking confused right now, babe.”
She was so embarrassed. All these years of pain, and it was all her fault. Rose couldn’t believe what was happening, and the fact it was, was crazy. Running fingers through her hair. “I don’t have a, regular cycle, I never have, so I don’t always release eggs on time.” They’d done all the necessary tests, and Hardy hadn’t been able to make the appointment all of those years ago, and so Rose went alone. He’d been on a run with the club, something neither of them had been able to change. Life back then had been chaotic, and they’d not been married long. Rose hadn’t wanted to put too much pressure on the relationship, but they were struggling to have kids. She hadn’t waited, and all the bad news had been happening because of her. “First, he suggested some treatments to help us conceive, and at the time, we couldn’t afford it. You were busy with club business, and didn’t make all the appointments. So, when I turned that down, Daniels advised that we take a break from having sex for a length of time, and during that time I could get checked to monitor my cycle as to when would be the best time for us to try. There were methods that were cheaper, and I didn’t take it in. The other way was for them to have sperm already on hand from you, so I could get pregnant. He tried to get me to go to future appointments, but none were kept by either of us, and Daniels didn’t bring it up as every time he did, I’d cry, and you’d shut down, not wanting to know. We were young, and Daniels figured when we were ready to take alternative routes, we’d talk to him. At the time, Daniels recommended that we would abstain from sex. You were perfectly healthy, but because we had a lot of sex, your sperm count was low. If you held off then your sperm count would increase, and overall, we’d possibly get lucky.”