Total pages in book: 35
Estimated words: 32807 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 164(@200wpm)___ 131(@250wpm)___ 109(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 32807 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 164(@200wpm)___ 131(@250wpm)___ 109(@300wpm)
“I never despised it,” Hawk said.
Sarah snorted. “Please, you were, like, ‘marriage is for losers,’ and ‘there are too many fish in the sea to marry just one.’ I thought it was an asshole statement, and I also think it was made by someone who couldn’t catch the right fish.”
Hawk looked toward his sister and knew he shouldn’t have asked her to take him.
“Aha, I knew it,” Sarah said.
“You knew what? That I deeply regret asking you to take me to look for a car? Because, guess what, I do!”
“No, all this time you were not able to get the right fish, and you have known Katie a long time. You were in the same year.”
And a couple of classes, but he wasn’t about to tell his sister that. She did not need any more ammo for her interrogation. Since when did his sister think like this? It was exhausting.
“And you and her are hanging out so much, and oh, my God, how did I not see this before? This is just so perfect.”
“I think you need help and to get out a little more,” Hawk said.
“You’re in love with Katie, and you have been for a long time, and that is why you act the way you do. Why you never had a steady girlfriend, and just had a whole bunch of women rotating through your bedroom. You didn’t get the woman you actually wanted.”
He looked toward his sister. “Your point?”
“Tell me, how does the thought of marrying Katie make you feel?”
Now his sister had grabbed both his arms and was forcing him to look straight at her.
“What is the point of this?” he asked.
“Just tell me. How does it make you feel? Come on, I’m your sister and you know I’m not going to tell anyone else.” She let out a pout. “Please, for me. Consider it payback for all those times you teased me growing up.”
He sighed. “I ... like the idea.” He actually more than liked it, but Katie wore Adam’s wedding band. However, he had noticed on the morning he made love to her, there was no wedding band in sight.
The more he thought about the future, the only person he saw was Katie. But he also saw her pregnant, with his kid. They hadn’t used fucking protection either, not the five times they had sex. He wanted to ask her if she was on anything, but at the same time, he didn’t want to know, so he could be excited about the possibility of becoming a dad. It was all messed up in his head.
Sarah squealed. “You want to marry Katie?”
“Yes, I do.”
He knew it hadn’t been a lot of time, but he was not the kind of guy to second-guess himself. He trusted his gut. He trusted want he wanted, which was why he was able to build up a successful company.
“I love her,” he said, finally revealing the truth. “I loved her when we were five years old. I loved her when we were ten through to eighteen, and I love her now.”
“Hawk?”
“And I’ve never told anyone,” Hawk said.
“Never?”
“Until you, right now, and a whole bunch of cars.” He sighed. “So, yeah, I love her more than anything in the world, and she was with Adam.”
“That’s one of the reasons you left?”
“I didn’t know they were getting married, but I also knew I didn’t have a chance with her.” He sighed and gripped the back of his neck. “I’m a loser, I know this.”
“You’re not a loser. Stop that,” she said.
He stopped at a minivan and saw Katie inside, but he also saw a couple of kids in the back.
Hawk turned toward his sister. “I’m not a loser? I couldn’t even speak to her in high school. You know what I did, I shoved her books to the ground. Yeah, I was that asshole that pushed her, or shoved her, and was a total dick, and it was all because I didn’t know how to go up to her and say, ‘Hey, I like you, and one day I hope you like me, so how about we go out sometime?’” He shook his head. “Fuck me, I am an asshole.”
Sarah sighed. “Unfortunately, I can’t correct you on that. You were an asshole. A giant one.” She gave his shoulder a little thump. “But you’re not still an asshole. You’ve got a chance now, and you don’t struggle to talk to her now, do you?”
“No.”
“So, not all is lost. You and Katie have a chance, you’ve just got to be willing to give it a shot. Are you willing?”
“Yeah, I am.” He wanted to more than anything.
“Then don’t let the mistakes of the past cloud your judgement, be the guy that goes after what he wants.”
He nodded his head. “But what about everything else?”