Total pages in book: 156
Estimated words: 160192 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 801(@200wpm)___ 641(@250wpm)___ 534(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 160192 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 801(@200wpm)___ 641(@250wpm)___ 534(@300wpm)
Even if he’d never admit it.
He moved his fingers in and out of the other man’s ass.
Fuck. He couldn’t wait much longer. Withdrawing his fingers, he washed them off in the water then coated his cock in lube.
Then he pushed the head of his dick against North’s back hole. Staring down at his cock he watched as he pushed himself between North’s ass cheeks.
The other man sucked in a breath and let it out slowly, forcing himself to relax as Jared pushed his way deep inside him.
Fuck.
It felt so damn good. Why was it always like this? On the cusp of being too good.
Maybe because you don’t deserve anything good.
Then again, North would deeply object to being called good. That was maybe part of the reason that Jared allowed himself to have North.
He was a lot like Jared.
Without morals.
Dark and dangerous.
Without any concerns about following the law or being a good person.
Another part of it was that he knew North could take care of himself. Nothing would harm him because North wouldn’t allow it.
North still did dangerous things. Stuff that Jared hated. If he could, he’d keep him locked up at home.
Safe and secure.
But North had threatened to leave him the one and only time he’d tried that.
Now, Jared knew better.
That was why Jared couldn’t have anyone else in his life. No one soft or sweet or innocent.
No. He’d never have that in his life again.
And Beltran was going to pay for taking that from him. He was going to die.
Only then could the stain on Jared’s soul be erased. Or at least lessened.
“You know how much you mean to me, right?” Jared asked, unable to stop himself.
He grasped hold of North’s hips as he drove himself in and out of his ass.
Fuck.
It felt so damn good.
“You shouldn’t,” North gritted out.
“That doesn’t change the fact that you do. So you better fucking take care of yourself, North. I expect you to always come back to me. Understand? There is no leaving me. You. Are. Mine.”
“Jared,” North warned.
“No. I don’t give a fuck if that goes against your beliefs. If you think I shouldn’t care. If you don’t care if you live or die. I fucking care. And you get yourself hurt or killed; I will fucking torture you in the afterlife. Get me?”
“Yeah,” North groaned. “I understand you. But you need to understand that you cannot coddle and smother me. I’m not delicate. I’m not weak or without my own skills.”
“I know. That’s why I let myself care about you. Because I know you’re fucking hard to kill.”
That didn’t mean something couldn’t happen to him.
Jared moved faster. “Things are ramping up with the search for Beltran. You need to keep safe.”
You need to let me keep you safe.
The words were unspoken but heard between them.
“Beltran is in a different country.”
“You know that’s no barrier to him getting what he wants.”
“He doesn’t know about our relationship. No one does.”
“Not true. I’m certain that Tabby knows.” Not that he was worried about his cousin sharing his secrets. She was the only other person he cared about other than this man. And he had things in place should shit fire up. “That means others might too.”
Yeah.
“And he might target you because of that. Fuck, that feels good.”
“I need to come.”
Slap! Slap!
He smacked the side of North’s thigh. “You don’t get to come.”
“You fucking bastard,” North told him in a flat voice.
“That’s me. Do you need me to rub your dick?”
“What? No, I do fucking not,” North told him.
“Promise me that you’re being careful.”
“Jared,” North warned.
Jared knew he was close to the edge of what North would tolerate from him.
“I know. I get it. But I cannot lose you and you know why.”
If he did, Jared might lose what part of his sanity he had left.
Definitely any of his humanity.
Losing his people had changed him. Warped him. It had left him cold and unfeeling.
Except when it came to him. North.
Or when it came to his cousin, Tabby.
Or her.
No. He wasn’t thinking about her. Angie wouldn’t be a part of his life. She was exactly the sort of entanglement that he was trying to avoid.
“Nothing is going to happen to me,” North told him. “Stop fucking worrying.”
He couldn’t help it.
Especially when North was hiding things from him.
Jared decided to let it drop before he drove North away from him and instead he concentrated of fucking him with hard, fast strokes until his balls tightened and he fell over the edge with a cry.
He closed his eyes, letting the pleasure wash through him.
Fuck.
Finally, he stepped back and washed his body, his dick. He wanted to wash North, to take the other man into his arms and hug him tight.
But he knew that wouldn’t be well received.
North wasn’t a cuddly-feely guy.
They finished in the shower, then he got dressed in his boxers and pants. They were basically alone in the house; there would be a guard at each door and then more roaming the grounds.