Total pages in book: 112
Estimated words: 105697 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 528(@200wpm)___ 423(@250wpm)___ 352(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 105697 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 528(@200wpm)___ 423(@250wpm)___ 352(@300wpm)
“Thanks, and good lay to you. Oh my God. I mean, good day. Have fun.” I fall back on the mattress again. “Oh, forget it.”
I hear her laughing as she trots down the stairs.
Opening my laptop, I push play and close my eyes to absorb the positivity of Daniel winning the Chalice a few years ago. His voice is a balm to my aching heart, even if it’s a post-game interview and I have no idea what they’re talking about.
His laughter and the cadence of his words—I miss him. Not just his presence. I miss his soul caressing mine, waking up with his eyes on me, and the sweetest smile already on his face. I miss the way I love you never came forced but flowed like a river from his heart to mine.
I squeeze my eyes closed, so tired of crying all the time and this constant hole in the middle of my chest that food or even a phone call won’t soothe. I need him. I need to be held in his arms again, to see the way he looks when he’s touched heaven, deep inside me. I miss how he calls it like he sees it, and those eight ab muscles of his. I miss him. And I miss Roman and the way that kid livened up our house and Dolly again. I miss both of their sweet hugs. And Daniel’s kiss on my head.
Touching my forehead, and it’s just me with no traces of him anymore.
The tire no longer spins, and the swing has been empty since they left. I’ve found myself running to the cottage when the loneliness gets to be too much, searching for any sign—a morsel left behind—that he was real. That we were real. That he really existed in my world and not just on my laptop or a voice on the other end of a phone call.
Curling onto my side, I let the next video play as I wrap myself up in my own arms to keep from falling apart again. It won’t work. It never does, but I’m all I have left of what we once were.
Buzz.
Buzz.
Buzz.
Sportscasters arguing about the greatest of all time weaves into my periphery. I open my eyes, seeing the video sideways. “Daniel Sutton,” I reply, as if I’m part of the conversation.
Buzz.
Oh no!
“The cottage,” I gasp.
Popping up, I grab my phone and turn off the alarm. I push out of bed, scrambling to change into the clothes I planned to wear to the meeting. Rushing through a quick freshen-up, I slip on a pair of flats and grab my laptop before stopping and looking out the window. A storm is coming. This better not be an omen.
I run down the stairs, and each old creak squeaks when I land on it. “Slow down before you fall, honey.” Dolly is waiting in the entry with a glass of orange juice and two sausage links. “Thought you could use the energy and protein.”
I kiss her cheek. “You’re the best.” Taking the juice in my free hand, I say, “Shove them in.”
She pokes the sausages into my mouth and then hands me my keys on the way out. “You can do it, Summer. Proud of you for chasing your dreams.”
I waffle my head since I can’t speak with a mouth full of breakfast meat. Still chewing, I don’t make it to my car before I hear, “And tell that old bag to do the right thing or she’ll be dealing with me.” I want to laugh, but I’ll choke if I do. And I’m not entirely sure she doesn’t mean it.
Shoving my laptop in the car, I finally swallow and wash the food down with the juice. Cocking an eyebrow, I turn back. “I won’t be telling her that, but I appreciate you having my back.”
“Rain is coming this way. Slow down so you don’t get in an accident.”
“I want to get there before it pours.” Probably not the answer she wants to hear. “Bye, Dolly.”
The speed limit is way too slow when I have to be somewhere important. Driving behind a row of tourists sightseeing makes it worse. “What are we taking a Sunday drive here? No. We’re not.”
The sky splits in two, sending a downpour to take over the town. A blanket of heavy rain won’t keep me from winning the cottage. I lay on my horn out of pure frustration and consider breaking the law by going around the three slowpoke cars.
“I’m starting to sound like a certain hockey player with a penchant for rule breaking,” I say softly, my heart clenching as his voice echoes through my head. “Rules are made for breaking.” The voice of the devil plays on repeat in my head. Do I? Should I?
The time on the dashboard urges me to drive the defense down the line. I don’t know what sport that’s from, but that’s what I’m going to do. It’s the only way to put in a bid on time. I slam the pedal to the floorboard and drive like a speed demon down the two-lane road, cutting over into the other lane to pass the slower drivers.