Total pages in book: 35
Estimated words: 33290 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 166(@200wpm)___ 133(@250wpm)___ 111(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 33290 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 166(@200wpm)___ 133(@250wpm)___ 111(@300wpm)
“G?” Colby’s voice had been broken, raw. “I’m sorry to call so late, but I didn’t know who else . . .”
I’d walked to his house in my pajamas and found him sitting on his kitchen floor, surrounded by empty beer bottles and wedding photos scattered like evidence of a crime scene. Lyla had told him she was leaving that afternoon. She’d been seeing someone else for months, she said. Their marriage had been a mistake from the beginning.
I’d sat down beside him on that cold tile floor and let him lean against me while he talked about all his perceived failures. As a husband, as a provider, as a man. I’d stroked his hair and whispered reassurances, and somewhere in those dark hours before dawn, my heart had made a decision my head couldn’t take back.
I’d fallen in love with my best friend’s pain, with his strength, with the way he’d picked himself up the next morning and made pancakes for his son like his world hadn’t collapsed twelve hours earlier. I’d fallen in love with his laugh when it finally returned weeks later, with his calloused hands that created beautiful things from raw wood, with the way he looked at Luca like the boy held the entire universe in his small body.
But Colby had been clear from the beginning. I was his friend, his support system, the safe harbor he could return to when the storms of single parenthood became too much. He’d dated other women over the years. Sarah, who’d lasted six months before he’d pulled away when she started talking about moving in together. Rebecca, the elementary school teacher who’d tried so hard to connect with Luca but had been gently pushed aside when things got too serious.
I’d watched him keep everyone at arm’s length, including me. Especially me. We’d had moments, glances that lasted too long, conversations that went deeper than friendship should allow, times when he’d touched my hand or shoulder and left my skin tingling for hours afterward. But he’d always pulled back, always maintained that careful distance.
Until last night, when desperation had made him bold enough to ask the impossible.
I abandoned the chrysanthemums and moved to the front of the shop, staring out at Main Street as the morning crowd began to emerge. Mrs. Patterson from the deli was setting up her sidewalk sign. The mailman was making his rounds, stopping to chat with Mr. Henderson about the weather. Normal small-town life continuing as if my world hadn’t been turned upside down.
The truth was, I’d been dreaming about being part of Colby and Luca’s family for so long that the fantasy had worn grooves in my heart. I knew exactly how Luca liked his sandwiches, cut diagonally, with the crusts removed. I knew he was afraid of thunderstorms but tried to be brave about it. I knew he saved his best artwork to show me first, that he asked for me specifically when he was sick, that he’d started calling me his “almost-mom” to his friends at school.
I knew Colby took his coffee black in the morning but with cream in the evening. I knew he hummed old country songs while he worked, that he read three chapters of a book every night before bed, that he checked on Luca at least twice after tucking him in. I knew the exact shade of gray his eyes turned when he was worried, and how his voice got rough when he was trying not to cry.
I knew them both so well that stepping into the role of wife and mother wouldn’t require acting. It would just require making official what my heart had been doing for years.
But that’s exactly what made it so dangerous.
The bell chimed again, and I turned to see my assistant manager, Miranda, arriving for her shift. She was a sweet college student who worked part-time to help pay for her education, and she had an uncanny ability to read my moods.
“You look like you haven’t slept,” she said, setting down her purse behind the counter. “Everything okay?”
“Just thinking about some big decisions,” I said vaguely.
“The kind that keep you up all night?”
“The kind that could change everything.”
Miranda studied my face with the wisdom of someone who’d grown up in a small town where everyone knew everyone else’s business. “Does this have anything to do with Colby Marshall? Because I saw him at the hardware store yesterday, and he looked like a man with something heavy on his mind.”
I shouldn’t have been surprised that she’d connected the dots. Miranda had worked for me for two years, and she’d seen Colby and Luca in the shop countless times. She’d also seen the way I lit up whenever they walked through the door.
“What would you do,” I asked carefully, “if someone you cared about asked you to do something that could either be the best decision of your life or completely destroy you?”