Total pages in book: 49
Estimated words: 44860 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 224(@200wpm)___ 179(@250wpm)___ 150(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 44860 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 224(@200wpm)___ 179(@250wpm)___ 150(@300wpm)
No, Aivan said. You're worse. He adjusted his cuff with the unconscious economy of a man who noticed everything and showed nothing. I was cruel because I didn't understand what I had. You understand exactly what you have. And you are going to ruin it anyway, because knowing frightens you more than not knowing ever frightened me.
Adriano's voice carried from inside, calling them back.
The conversation ended the way a door closed.
But it hadn't ended. Not really. Because he'd been carrying it since, through the rest of the dinner, through the goodbyes, through the drive home and the quiet of the apartment and the night that followed, Chelsea sleeping against him with her hand on his chest, her breathing slow and certain and absolutely unaware of the thing his brother had named.
He'd lain awake for a long time.
The thing his brother had named was not new information. He had known it, the shape of it at least, since the car ride home on Day One, when she'd murmured his name in her sleep and his thumb had moved across her knuckles without his permission. Since the conference room, if he was honest, and the honesty was not available to him most of the time but arrived with uncomfortable clarity at three in the morning with her weight against his side.
He knew what the wrongness was.
He knew what it was and he could not do anything with the knowledge, because the knowledge came with a cost he had decided at a very young age he would never pay.
Control was the only thing that couldn't walk out the door. He had built his life on that principle. He had built twelve years and an empire on it.
And Chelsea had walked into his lobby in a blue-flowered dress, with her Bible study case and her limp and her complete and devastating unawareness of what she did to every room she entered, and in eight days she had done what no acquisition, no strategy, no rational plan had ever managed.
She had made the principle feel fragile.
He lay in the dark with her hand over his heart and told himself that precious was not the same as necessary. That the Marquez dinner was next week and the deal would close and the marriage would have served its purpose. That what his brother had seen on his face was stress, adjustment, the entirely natural response of a man whose life had been upended by a development he hadn't planned for.
He told himself these things.
His hand found hers in the dark and held it, and the wrongness settled back into his chest like something that had been living there longer than he wanted to admit.
It only disappeared when she was beneath him. When his body covered hers and the world outside the two of them ceased to exist, when there was nothing left of him that wasn't fixed on her, on the sounds she made and the way she said his name, the wrongness went quiet. Everything went quiet except Chelsea.
And then.
After.
Always after.
Her head on his chest. Her fingers tracing idle patterns on his skin in the half-dark. Her breathing evening out as sleep took her, slow and certain, and Olivio staring at the ceiling with the wrongness returning to its place behind his ribs, patient and implacable, waiting.
Something wasn't right.
He closed his eyes.
He was running out of ways to disagree.
Chapter Seven
I LOVE YOU.
It started this morning, already there when Chelsea woke, as if the words had been waiting for her on the other side of sleep.
I love you.
She couldn't stop thinking of it.
I love you.
The words were a breathless echo when Olivio rolled her on top of him, his fingers clasping her waist as he taught her to take the lead, and oh, the newness of it, the terrifying thrill of being above him instead of beneath, of seeing his face while he guided her, his jaw clenched and his eyes burning up at her with a hunger that would have frightened her if her body hadn't already decided, without consulting her brain, that it knew exactly what to do.
She moved, and his grip on her waist tightened.
She moved again, and a sound escaped him, low and rough and wrenched from somewhere he hadn't given it permission to leave, and the power of it, the knowledge that she had caused that, undid her so completely that her rhythm faltered and her hands flew to his chest to catch herself.
He didn't let her fall.
His hands were already there, steadying her, and then his body was moving with hers, and Chelsea could not think, could not breathe, could only hold on and bite her lip oh so very hard because the words were right there, pressing against her teeth, demanding to be said—-
I love you.
She couldn't say them. Not yet. Not like this. So she let her body say what her mouth wouldn't, and when the pleasure broke over her and she came apart in his arms, it was those three words that filled her chest like a sob she refused to release, and her husband gritting her name in his own undoing was the closest thing to an answer she was going to get.