Total pages in book: 160
Estimated words: 151097 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 755(@200wpm)___ 604(@250wpm)___ 504(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 151097 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 755(@200wpm)___ 604(@250wpm)___ 504(@300wpm)
It was almost too much to handle.
I felt my toes curl as my orgasm swiftly rose.
The only thing that could make this even more explosive was knowing I had a good, stiff dick waiting to fill me up after.
As if thinking the same and racing to finish so we could both be stuffed with dick, Coby was the first to break. Her hips lost their rhythm as her muscles tensed, and then she screamed.
Coby’s release triggered my own, and I came barely a breath behind her.
She collapsed on top of me, and I held her as she hid her face in my neck with the front of our naked bodies lined up. It was quiet for so long that I assumed she’d fallen asleep until she lifted her head sometime later to stare at me. “You never answered me earlier.”
“About what? I was a little busy,” I teased groggily.
Coby rolled off me to sit against the headboard with her knees tucked against her chest. “Why didn’t you want to be with me?”
I sighed as I pulled myself up, grabbed our discarded shirts, and handed Coby hers. I waited the ten seconds it took us to redress to respond. “I did. I still do. I just… can’t.”
“But why?”
Post orgasmic bliss over, I climbed off the bed. “I don’t want to talk about this. I’m going to shower.”
Coby followed me, running around the bed to cut off my path to the bathroom. “No!” she yelled as she pushed me back. I stumbled but caught myself. “I’m sick of you running away from me. We’re going to talk about this, and we’re going to do it now! Tell me why we can’t be together.”
“You mean besides the obvious fact that you just told me you’re in love with someone else and you’re marrying him?” I pushed her back, but she caught my wrists to keep me from going anywhere. Coby was a lot stronger than she looked. The only way I was going to shake the bitch loose was to fight her ass off.
“That’s not good enough!”
“Fuck it. You want to know why?” I grabbed her arms since they were all I could reach and yanked her close until her chest was pressed into mine. I could feel her heart pounding. “Because you were the first to ever last. The first one who didn’t hurt me. I wasn’t going to risk losing you by getting greedy. If it didn’t work out, we could never return to being friends. Did you think about that? I’d be alone. No… actually, I wouldn’t be. If you ever walked away like everyone else, I would die, Coby, and I don’t mean in my heart. I would literally throw myself into the sound and cease to exist. The only way I could survive losing you is to not survive at all. You get it? Are you happy now? Can I go wash you off me now and forget this ever happened?”
Coby’s grip loosened from the shock of my admission. “Oh, my God, Hunter,” she wailed. “Why didn’t you tell me?”
“Because later, when you wanted to break it off, you’d remember. You’d try to make it work even if it cost you everything. I wasn’t going to let you sacrifice your happiness for mine. I love you too much.”
She gave me a sad smile. “But only as a friend, right?”
“No,” I heard myself say. “Not as a friend.”
Coby sniffled and then took cautious steps toward me. “Then be with me. Be with us,” she quickly amended. “Ocean loves you as much as I do, and I know you love him.”
“Coby…think. What if one of us gets jealous or feels like the other is getting more attention?”
“Jealousy wouldn’t be anything new for us, don’t you think? I don’t know about Ocean, but it’s like foreplay for us now. And when have you or I ever been callow enough to cry about not getting enough attention? This isn’t a competition. It’s a relationship. It’s love. For this to work, you need to have your own connection with Ocean, just as I do, and just as we already do. I’ll respect yours if you respect mine. Otherwise, we’ll all just end up feeling like a third wheel. I’m not saying this arrangement can work for anyone. I’m saying it can work for us. We’re the exception, not the rule.”
“I hear you,” I returned. But I still wasn’t quite convinced, and Coby knew it.
“Hunter, I’m not saying it will be easy. It won’t be a normal relationship because none of us is normal. You think there’s anyone more perfect out there for you? For Ocean? For me? Yes, I get jealous whenever I think of you together, but I love the way it feels. I love the bitter burn. I’ve fantasized about the things you told me he did to you. I crave the day when I can watch you two together, but it’s not just about sex. Ocean would do anything for me, and nothing makes me happier than knowing he would do the same for you. I never wanted to be without you, and to know I don’t have to be feels right. If there was ever anything worth fighting for, it’s this. It’s us. Ocean isn’t the knife to tear us apart. He’s the glue. Tell me you don’t feel it.”