Total pages in book: 153
Estimated words: 152064 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 760(@200wpm)___ 608(@250wpm)___ 507(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 152064 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 760(@200wpm)___ 608(@250wpm)___ 507(@300wpm)
But you are everything I could ever want in a partner.
Kind, intelligent, ambitious, supportive, independent.
Adventurous. ;)
You gave me back so many firsts.
Reframed them.
You make me feel worthy of love.
And no matter what happens from here, you will always have my heart.
Yours,
Phillip
Some notes are just a few lines, scrawled in messy cursive, like he had a thought and just wanted to get it down.
Tally,
Today I went to the Pancake House and ordered your favorite meal just to feel close to you. God, I miss you.
Yours always,
Phillip
Tally,
I used your expensive conditioner for not conditioning purposes and I’m not even a little sorry about it. When you’re mine again, I want to make it mandatory that we shower together at least once a week. Also, that we read in the tub together.
Yours until the end of time,
Phillip
Tally,
Today we lost a game and all I wanted was to lie with my head in your lap and feel your fingers in my hair.
I miss you.
Phillip
Tally,
I have watched the video you sent me of you dancing an unreasonable number of times. It’s the first thing I do in the morning and the last thing I do at night. I’m wildly obsessed with you.
Obsessively yours,
Phillip
Tally,
Would it be crossing the line to have a 3D replica doll made of your significant other for away games? Asking for a friend.
Seriously in need of therapy and okay with it,
Phillip
Tally,
I’m jealous of my body pillow. The one you’re probably sleeping next to every night. So I went ahead and had a picture of you printed on a body pillow and then had the brilliant idea to take it with me on away games by putting it in a vacuum sealed bag. Except I didn’t pack a vacuum in my suitcase so I had to call housekeeping and pay some woman a hundred dollars to help shrink you down again. I would have just owned it, but the picture I used isn’t fully PG and if your dad saw it I might not make it home with all my teeth.
Best laid plans and all.
Still obsessed and okay with it.
Xx
Phillip
PS. Even pillow you is sexy AF.
A picture of Phillip hugging pillow me is taped to the opposite page, along with another of him glowering at my body pillow.
“Oh my God. How did you find out about the body pillow? When did you find out about it?”
“Remember the day your bathroom was converted into a spa?”
“The one day I forget to put him away!”
“I love that you sleep with it when I’m gone and also that Cammie bought that for you.” He kisses my temple.
“He’s a decent stand in, but he has nothing on the real thing.” I kiss his cheek.
“Pillow Tally is the same.”
I keep reading the notes, some sweet, some filthy, but mostly emotional, until I reach the last one. I climb into his lap, straddling his thighs as I read it aloud.
Tally,
I’m hiding out in the bathroom, writing this. You were magnificent tonight, but I knew you would be.
I’m so proud of you.
You worked so hard for this, and your talent is mind-blowing.
I can’t wait to hug you, kiss you, hold you, and tell you how special you are.
I can’t wait to give you this journal and share all my thoughts and feelings for you, about you, about us and our future with you.
But most of all, I can’t wait to tell you I love you.
Always and forever yours,
Phillip
A tear escapes as I set the journal aside and cup his face in my hands. He looks so earnest and beautiful and mine. I press my lips to his. “I love you too. With all my heart.”
CHAPTER 60
FLIP
“You own me, Tallulah. I’m yours.”
“That’s all I’ve ever wanted.” She sucks my bottom lip, dragging it through her teeth. “Now take me to bed.”
I grip the back of her thighs and stand, leaving behind the untouched champagne and spread of snacks as I carry her to the bedroom.
Tally kisses my neck, biting her way across my jaw. “I need you inside me.”
I climb onto the bed with her still wrapped around me. “What if I want to take my time with you?” I gently lay her on the cool sheets and settle in the cradle of her hips.
“You took your time with me for months. We have the rest of our lives for sweetness and romance.” She rolls her hips and kisses my chin. “Show me how obsessed you are with me.”
I cover her mouth with mine, pressing her into the mattress. She moans and our tongues tangle as she pulls at my shirt, trying to free it from my pants. We part long enough for me to get it over my head.
“I need these off. You can take your time with me later. Tomorrow. After the game.” She yanks the belt free and pops the button on my dress pants. I shove them down my thighs and rid her of my shirt.