Total pages in book: 48
Estimated words: 45782 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 229(@200wpm)___ 183(@250wpm)___ 153(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 45782 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 229(@200wpm)___ 183(@250wpm)___ 153(@300wpm)
Chadka smiles at her and shifts his attention to me. “I really think she will grow out of this phase over time. It’s difficult for human females to grasp the permanency of relationships on Eleadia. Even though deep inside she knows how strongly she feels for you, she can’t trust you feel the same for her. It’s a foreign concept for any human female. When I see someone like Janelle who suffered emotional trauma before coming here, they often have more trouble than others processing the bond.”
“Is there anything I can do to help her?” I feel so incredibly helpless while I watch my Little girl panic over and over.
“Reassure her as often as she needs that you’re not going anywhere. Be patient. I know I don’t need to tell you that, but I’m sure inside, you’re hurting on her behalf, too.”
“Am I doing more harm than good by holding her all the time?”
“How much of the day are we talking about?” Chadka asks.
“Most of the time when she’s awake. Often when she’s sleeping, too.”
“Does she nap and sleep in her crib?”
I shake my head. “No. She did the first few days, but as soon as she started talking, she was able to voice her sheer panic at being left alone in her nursery. I spoke to Kalbrac. He had a special railing built for his bed when he returned to Eleadia with his Little, Clara. He said it gave him peace of mind that she wouldn’t fall out of bed, so I ordered one for my bed. It helps me sleep without fear of her being injured.”
Chadka nods. “I’ve heard about those railings. Genius idea. More and more Papis are ordering them. So, she’s been sleeping in your bed for naps and at night?”
“Yes. She can’t fully relax unless I’m touching her.”
“Have you tried using a pacifier?”
“Yes. I give it to her when it’s time to sleep. It helps, but her anxiety is still pretty high. The scent of her terror fills the room.”
Chadka rubs his chin. “I know you don’t mind holding her. Lord knows we would all hold our Little girls every hour of every day if we could. But eventually you’ll need to go back to work. You’ll always keep her close, usually in your line of sight, but she will need some independence from you.”
“That’s my concern,” I say.
“I suggest you start putting her down in her playpen and forcing her to learn to separate from you. Start with ten minutes twice a day and build up. I’m not saying you should leave the room. Stay where she can see you. That’s normal for most relationships and will always be that way. You’ll suffer your own form of panic attack if you leave her line of sight.”
I chuckle. He’s right.
“She might fuss or complain, but let her cry it out. Be firm. Don’t pick her up until the ten minutes have passed. It doesn’t matter if she’s wailing the entire time. You’ll still add five minutes to the time each day.”
When I lower my gaze to Janelle, I find her pouting. Her brow is furrowed.
“Have you pleasured her yet since returning to Eleadia?”
“Not yet. I thought it was best to wait until we saw you today.”
“I’ll examine her, but I suspect she’s strong enough for you to start giving her the physical release she undoubtedly craves. It will strengthen your bond, and Little girls are more relaxed after an orgasm.”
Janelle stiffens. I know it bothers her when I discuss her pleasure with the doctors. She’s embarrassed, but she’ll get used to it. I will always talk to Chadka and Thabo about her sexual health. It’s an important part of our lives. Unlike humans, we take sexual relations very seriously on Eleadia. A good sex life is part of our existence as a couple.
Chadka stands. “Let’s get her on the exam table.”
Janelle whimpers as I rise and carry her to the table. She’s not going to release me without an argument. Her strength always becomes herculean when she thinks I might put her down.
She clings to me as I lower her to her bottom, gripping my neck so I’m unable to stand upright.
Chadka strokes her hair from the other side of the table. “I’ll give you two choices, Little one,” he says firmly.
I’m glad he’s going to be the bad guy here.
“If you can be a brave girl for me and let go of your Papi while I examine you, I promise he will keep both hands on you at all times. If you want to be stubborn, I will have him take two steps back and watch from a distance. You pick.”
Surprisingly, she releases me. She’s pouting, but I’ll take it. I keep one hand on her thigh and the other on the small of her back.