Total pages in book: 83
Estimated words: 78250 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 391(@200wpm)___ 313(@250wpm)___ 261(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 78250 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 391(@200wpm)___ 313(@250wpm)___ 261(@300wpm)
Boone’s expression went stone-cold serious. Chance’s jaw ticked like a freaking clock. Dillon’s hand tightened around mine like he could anchor me to something solid.
It took everything I had to say those words out loud. I spent weeks trying to pretend the nightmare back in New York hasn’t followed me here. That I’m not the stupid girl who interrupted the private conversation of a mob boss, overheard a death sentence being passed down.
But now that it’s out there, it feels like something inside me cracks wide open. The weirdest part is that they don’t look at me like I’ve ruined their peace. They look at me like I’m theirs to protect.
The bath Boone drew for me smelled faintly of cedar soap, steam rising gently from the surface and wrapping me in a hug in his absence. Chance queued up a playlist he claimed he made especially for me, with quiet guitars and low, raspy voices that soothed my nerves in a way I didn’t know I needed. Dillon showed up with a cupcake like it was the cure for trauma.
It kind of worked.
Lying in that tub last night, I realized something I was ready to face. I’ve never been cared for like that. Not by a boyfriend. Not by my parents.
My aunt raised me, and she and Madison are the only people who ever looked out for me. But my aunt worked long hours, and Madison’s version of care is sending me packing halfway across the country.
Until now, I mostly took care of myself, but I can’t afford to think about that. I have bigger problems.
While in town yesterday, I had snuck a purchase into the basket, scanning and bagging it before Chance saw.
I sit on the edge of the bathroom counter, staring at the little white stick in my shaking hands. The pink line shows up almost instantly, like it can’t wait to ruin my morning.
Positive.
“Oh, you have got to be kidding me.” My voice cracks on the last word.
I press a hand to my stomach like that might somehow change the result. My brain spins. My stomach swirls. The world tips sideways.
This can’t be happening. Not now.
I’ve always wanted to be a mom. Deep down, I’m not sure I’m cut out for it, but I’ve always desperately wanted a family. I want to give someone everything I never had and love them as fiercely as I know I can.
But this is not how I imagined it happening.
I sink down onto the cool tile floor, pulling my knees up and bowing my head to breathe.
Pregnant. I’m pregnant with one of their babies.
A shaky laugh rattles out of me, half panic and half disbelief. If I wrote my life as a screenplay, no one would buy this plot twist.
Now my head is a storm of questions I can’t answer. What will they think? Will they be mad? Will they ask me to leave? Will this wreck the strange, perfect rhythm we’ve fallen into?
They told me about their dynamic, how they work together, how they share everything. But sharing a child?
That’s a whole different level of commitment.
I press the back of my hand to my mouth to keep myself from groaning, or worse, screaming. What the hell am I going to do?
Somewhere downstairs, dishes clatter. Dillon’s voice rises in mock annoyance. Boone replies with a low rumble. Chance laughs.
My panic doubles as I listen to them move through their morning the way they always do, with no idea what’s happening up here. I want this tiny, impossible life growing inside me to be safe. I want it to grow up with these sounds, with their warmth, with this home, but I have no clue how to tell them.
For a long time, I just sit there on the tiles, wondering how I could be so reckless. I’ve never slept with one guy without a condom, let alone three. In the heat of the moment, I wasn’t thinking.
That’s the God’s honest truth.
Fuck.
“Roxie! Breakfast is ready.”
Dillon’s voice filters up the stairs. I sigh and push myself up on knees I barely feel.
“I’ll be there in a minute!” I call, pulling on the bathrobe that appeared at my bedroom door a couple days ago and hugging the soft, luxurious fabric around me.
Halfway down the stairs, my knees start working again, but my mind keeps spinning around the fact that there’s an actual life growing inside me right now.
Bright morning light pours through the kitchen windows when I walk in, catching on polished counters and scattered papers Boone left out last night. Dillon leans against the counter with that stupid grin that somehow makes everything lighter.
Boone’s usual scowl softens when he sees me. Chance stands near the stove with a mug in his hand, looking like he’s been waiting.
“Good morning,” Dillon says, stepping forward to kiss my temple. “Don’t take this the wrong way, but you look like hell, babe.”