Total pages in book: 16
Estimated words: 14597 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 73(@200wpm)___ 58(@250wpm)___ 49(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 14597 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 73(@200wpm)___ 58(@250wpm)___ 49(@300wpm)
“The thing about life is that nothing is a sure thing. We could walk out on to the sidewalk and get hit by a car. But that doesn’t mean we live our life alone. You toasted last night to today, but are you even living for today if you don’t let anyone in?”
Willow’s face softens. She swallows thickly, but doesn’t say anything, so I continue. “You don’t have to be alone… We don’t have to be alone. I’m almost forty years old. I’ve dated dozens of women, but I never saw a future with a single one of them. It wasn’t until you stepped out of that bathroom that I realized it was because I was waiting for the right woman. You. I want to be the guy who you live today with. But more than that, I want to be the man who helps you find your tomorrow.”
Willow gasps and a tear trickles down her cheek. “I don’t know if I can give you that,” she admits softly. “I’m so scared.”
Framing her face in my hands, I give her a soft kiss to her lips. “How about you just give me today? We’ll take it one day at a time, but instead of doing it alone, we’ll do it together.”
“Okay,” she whispers. “Today. Together.”
CHAPTER SIX
WILLOW
My head is spinning with everything that’s happened. Everything Jax has said. I don’t know where up is at this point, but I think I’m okay with that. He wants to live in today with me, and if I’m honest, I really want to live in it with him. I was never one to believe in love at first sight, and I’m not saying I’m in love with him, plus, I’ve known him for two years… But there’s something there between us, and I would be stupid to allow my fear of the future to stop us from seeing where things go. But first, he needs to know a couple of things.
“No marriage,” I blurt out. When his brows furrow, I explain. “Marriage means forever. I can live in today with you, but marriage is off the table. So, if that’s something you want, you need to know it’s never going to happen.”
Jax nods once. “I understand. No marriage.”
“And I don’t want any kids.”
“There are other ways of having kids,” he says softly.
“If you want kids, you need to walk away now,” I tell him. “I don’t want kids. Kids are attachments, dependents, and if something happens to one of us, they will be left without a mom or a dad. No kids. Ever.” I choke out the last word.
Jax’s gaze flits back and forth between my eyes, then he nods. “No kids. Just you and me. Today.”
My chest tightens, squeezing my heart. “If you change your mind, it’s okay,” I tell him, needing him to know he always has an out. “I’ll never change my mind, but if you do… if you want marriage and kids, all you have to do is tell me and I’ll understand.”
“Okay,” he says, wrapping his arms around me. “If anything ever changes, I’ll tell you.” He presses his lips to mine. “We already missed the movie, but how about we get cleaned up, go grab some takeout, and we can go home and rent a movie.”
“That sounds good.”
When we get home, we both run upstairs to change out of our work clothes. When I go to enter my room, Jax stops me. “I want you in my room with me.”
“Do you think we’re moving too fast?” I ask, worried we’re going to lose control and crash and burn.
“We’re living in today,” he says. “Today, I want you in my bed with me.”
After moving my duffel bag of stuff into his room, we change and then go back downstairs to eat our Chinese and watch a movie. He doesn’t find any of the movies he mentioned before, but he seems stoked when he apparently finds another movie he swears everyone needs to watch before they die: Top Gun.
While we watch the movie, Jax holds me close to him. We laugh at the funny stuff the guys do and say. Jax recites his favorite lines along with the guys when they say them, and then when Maverick and Charlie make love, he picks me up, and forgetting about the rest of the movie, carries me up to his room and makes love to me until we’re both unable to move. And then once we’re both completely sated, we fall asleep wrapped in each other’s arms.
Today, I think to myself, was a really good day. And then for the first time in over a year, I allow myself to think about tomorrow.
CHAPTER SEVEN
JAX
The feel of something rubbing against my dick has me waking up. I glance down and grin at the sight of Willow’s perfect round ass currently rubbing up and down my dick. I take a moment to appreciate the sight in front of me. She’s in a tiny black tank top and an even tinier black thong that leaves her plump butt cheeks completely exposed. She wears the same thing to bed every night—only the colors changing. And every morning she wakes me up in the same way. With her ass against my dick.