Total pages in book: 80
Estimated words: 75547 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 378(@200wpm)___ 302(@250wpm)___ 252(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 75547 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 378(@200wpm)___ 302(@250wpm)___ 252(@300wpm)
Kristen moves like she rehearsed for this too. Down the hall. Bedroom. Closet. Another bag. The bathroom. The dull thud of small bottles dropping into a kit. The quiet, murderous efficiency of a woman who just realized that everything she didn’t pay for isn’t hers and everything that is hers fits in three zippers.
Brian stands with his hands in his pockets so we don’t see them shake. He looks at me like the community watch public service announcement warned him about men like me. He looks away like I don’t exist because if I do, then so does the part where he’s the guy who changed a gate code instead of facing a person. That’s a harder story to tell himself.
Kristen returns with the last bag. She sets it by the door and pauses in the foyer with the alarm panel. Her shoulders roll back. She turns to him. “You could have told me,” she states. No drama. Just a truth placed neatly where he can’t help but step on it. “Just given me time to sort myself.”
He shrugs like it’s charming. “I did. I said you were free to leave anytime.”
“You meant it like garbage day. You left and didn’t come back. Didn’t answer my calls or texts. You went ghost until you ripped everything away from me. Then you still couldn’t face me.”
He doesn’t answer. The silence is a confession. She nods once, as if accepting an apology he’s not capable of giving, then picks up her bags.
I take two without asking because they’re heavy and I don’t need her spine doing work it didn’t sign up for. We step out. The door clicks behind us. She locks it like she’s putting a lid on a box never to open it again. She stares at the house for one long breath and I let her because the leaving’s real when you see the shape you’re walking away from.
At the gate, we hit the call again. The woman buzzes us out with less attitude. Maybe she caught the tone in the foyer through a speaker and decided she doesn’t get hazard pay. I load the bags of stuff she doesn’t need immediately into a locker at the club’s garage because I’m not about to parade her luggage through my parking lot like a moving van. It’s her family photos and gifts that were hers before Brian. We keep her clothes and toiletries with us. Then we head back to my place.
She’s quiet on the ride. Not the brittle kind. The finished kind. When we click inside, she sets one bag by the chair and one by the dresser and sits on the edge of the bed like she’s not sure she’s allowed.
“You can… stay,” I explain, and realize she might need reassurance. Even though the truth is, I haven’t thought past today. “As long as you need.”
She looks up with something like panic and gratitude wrestling in her eyes. “Kellum, I can’t— I don’t want to— you don’t even—”
“I know enough,” I cut her off before she can finish. I hook a thumb toward the kitchen. “There’s food enough to keep you upright. You want to pay rent, you can do dishes and call my mother and tell her I used the shampoo she bought. She’ll cry and send six more.”
She laughs again. It comes easier this time. “I can do dishes.”
“Good.” I reach into a drawer and pull out a key that opens exactly one door. I toss it to her. She fumbles and then catches it against her chest. “That’s yours.”
Her throat works. “You’re giving me a key.”
“Don’t make it a poem,” I state, because the feeling that runs under my skin when I see her set the key on the nightstand neat as a vow is new and I don’t want to name it. “It’s a lock. You need to get in at three in the morning and I’m not home, you don’t want to feel like a burglar.”
She nods too many times. Her eyes shine again. I pretend I don’t see it. She pretends she’s not saving the key from her own hands like it might run away.
Night lays itself over us by degrees. She showers again, quick this time. I let her pick the channel on the television and she chooses silence instead, which works for me. We eat the kind of dinner that doesn’t deserve the name—grilled cheese because it’s what I can make without burning something. She says it’s perfect like she’s been on a desert island and it’s a steak. I don’t argue with people when they complement my cooking.
When it’s time to sleep, round two is different. Now she knows where the light switch is and how the sheet feels and what it’s like to be a weight on my chest and not a burden. She still hesitates at the edge of the bed, hand on the top blanket like it’s the line between what she was and what she is.