Total pages in book: 130
Estimated words: 121008 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 605(@200wpm)___ 484(@250wpm)___ 403(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 121008 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 605(@200wpm)___ 484(@250wpm)___ 403(@300wpm)
I nearly scream. It feels so good to be impaled on him. Nothing in my life feels as good as Beck ramming his cock into my pussy. He looks down at me with stark eyes. His face is savage in the fire’s glow, and though I just came, I feel it build again as he pounds into me.
He’s so big inside me. I feel like I might split in two, but it’s a good pain. I wrap my legs around his waist, trying to tempt him deeper. I haven’t taken all of him yet. He stares down at the place where his cock meets my pussy.
“It’s beautiful,” he mutters as he watches himself fuck me. “You’re beautiful.”
I feel beautiful. I let my hands trail down his strong back to his muscular buttocks and sink my nails in lightly. I want all of him.
“You open up for me.” He spreads my legs further and shoves that last inch in.
I’ve never been so full. This is connection. This is what I’ve been missing all of my life.
He leans forward so his pelvic bone grinds against my clitoris as he swivels his hips and pants. His long, dark hair flows all around me. It tickles my skin, making me feel like he’s touching me in a hundred spots. Then only one spot matters as he pushes himself deep.
This time I don’t hold back my moans. I groan as he stiffens above me. I can feel his cock pulsing deep inside. The orgasm rolls across my body, leaving me trembling as he falls forward against me.
I wrap my arms around him and feel his heart beating against my breast. He nuzzles my neck. His cock is still inside me, and if I could sleep this way, I would. He’s everywhere, all around me. I’ve never felt so safe.
He rolls off me, and a wave of disappointment floods in. It’s coming from him.
“I lost my head at the end.” He speaks through clenched teeth. “I’m sorry. It won’t happen again. I know I keep saying that, but I mean it. Did I hurt you?”
I turn my back to him, so he can’t see my face.
“I liked it,” I say hollowly. At least I had until he opened his damn mouth again. “I’m not some fragile thing. I won’t break. I liked it, especially at the end.”
He sighs and puts a hand on my hip. “No, you didn’t. You’re just trying to be a good wife. I’ll be more careful next time.”
“Sure.” I’m not going to argue with him. I’m not going to point out that he’s telling me I’m lying about how I feel. It doesn’t matter.
There’s not going to be a next time. The sex is incredible, but it’s not worth the way he makes me feel afterward. I think what we shared is beautiful, and he keeps making it something to be ashamed of.
He pulls me close, wrapping his thick arms around my body. He throws a leg over mine. I find myself thoroughly trapped in his embrace. Moments ago I imagined this as the sexiest thing I can think of, but then he opened his mouth.
I try to pull away.
“Stay still,” he orders quietly. “It’s cold. I’ll keep you warm.”
“And if I don’t want to be warm?” I squirm against him.
“Then I’ll keep you warm anyway,” he says, his voice rough with command.
He’s so frustrating. He’s the essence of the dominant partner. It’s in everything he does. Why does he deny it? I settle down. There’s no way I’m getting away from him tonight. He sets his face against the nape of my neck. His warmth is so sweet. I find myself pulled in again.
I’m leaving in the morning. Earlier he explained that he’s going to get up at dawn and find some breakfast for us. While he’s hunting, I’ll leave. Dante’s wrong. It’s not up to me to train Beck. It’s not up to me to teach him that it isn’t wrong to love the way he wants to. He won’t listen, and I’ll end up hating him and myself.
So I’ll leave, and he can find a more proper bondmate.
“Good night, love,” he whispers in my ear.
I’m silent because good night means good-bye, and I can’t bring myself to say the words.
Chapter Ten
Meg
I wake the minute he leaves the small nest we slept in. I felt him disentangle himself and missed the heat of his body. He draped himself around me all through the night, tangling our limbs together. It’s the best sleep I’ve gotten in a long time.
I stay still, listening as he dresses, rebuilds the fire, and prepares to hunt for breakfast. He leans over and kisses me softly before he stalks off to find food.
The sweetness of his actions almost makes me reconsider what I’m about to do.
Almost.
I force myself to count to one hundred before getting up and tossing on my clothes. I pull on the boots last and then retrieve the saddlebag Dante gave me the day before. There’s food and a canteen, and what looks like a first aid kit. He also slipped his business card in. It declares him Head of the Green Sales Unit. Ah, used car salesman to the core. There are a few other things I don’t recognize, but I throw the bag over my shoulder and wonder which way to go. I decide on south, since I can make it back to the market. Obviously I’m not planning on going to the market since they would likely call up Beck to retrieve his wayward property, but perhaps there will be someone on the road who can help me.