Total pages in book: 180
Estimated words: 168121 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 841(@200wpm)___ 672(@250wpm)___ 560(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 168121 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 841(@200wpm)___ 672(@250wpm)___ 560(@300wpm)
Lifting the liquor to his lips, Jay emptied the glass in a burning swallow that wasn’t close to rivaling the fire in his chest. “Happiness.”
Roy shifted his thumb over the gun’s hammer, cocking it with an empty expression. “Happiness is fleeting. An unquantifiable nonentity. Her real needs were met by my hand. She simply couldn’t live without me.”
Enough of the fucking mind games. “Is that why you kidnapped and tortured her?” Admit it or pull the trigger, motherfucker.
Silent seconds lapsed. Roy’s finger traced the trigger guard. “If your eyes weren’t convincing enough, your impudence despite your position—” He glanced at the gun, back at Jay “—is evidence that she isn’t waiting for you. It is done.” He lifted the stack of paperwork and flipped it to face Jay. “A copy of my will. For the inconvenience caused to you and Nathan Winslow by the loss of Noah Winslow and Charlee Grosky, you are both coheirs to my empire. However…” He tossed back the scotch and set the empty glass to the side. “She will always be my beautiful girl, and I will possess her again in the afterlife.” He raised a revolver.
Jay flinched and his heart stopped, ready, waiting.
A cackle tumbled from Roy’s chest. “Relax, Mr. Mayard. I will acquire her on the other side before you get the chance.” He shoved the barrel in his mouth and squeezed the trigger.
The bang reverberated in Jay’s ears and shuddered down his spine. Brain matter spurted on the bookshelves behind Roy’s slumped body.
Footsteps stomped around him, voices shouted, alarms rent the dense air. A red light blinked in the ceiling. The recordings captured a suicide instead of a confession. It was over.
It should’ve loosened the fist squeezing Jay’s heart. He stood, moved to the wall, and braced an arm against it, anticipating the retribution to wash over him, to fill the vacuum with…what? Nothing would replace her loss. Not Roy’s billions or his death.
He pulled out his phone and said with a voice thick with spit, “Charter a jet, Tony. I’m going home. To Canada.” To scrape up what was left and rebuild. For what purpose? The hollowness inside him expanded, crushing his organs, consuming every dream.
Charlee ended her life knowing it would stop Roy from fucking with his. Had she considered how meaningless it would all be without her? He would’ve gladly spent a lifetime running and fighting if it kept her at his side, her hand in his.
As he strode from the room, his heart battled between grief and anger, his arms burning to hold her, his hands itching to paddle her ass. But he wouldn’t be able to do either. Never again.
95
They say the only thing certain in life is death. As Jay leaned his head against the window of the seven-passenger Beaver floatplane, he felt that certainty like a tumor in his chest. It rooted its stems through his heart and coiled branches around his lungs, constricting, strangling. Her death had no intention of letting go.
They also say death gets easier. He was much less certain about that. The plan was to spend the next few months oscillating between being pissed off at her and unproductively depressed. Maybe he would write a few angst-filled songs to express the utter helplessness of his mind.
Tony sat in the front, beside the contracted pilot, her hands folded in her lap. As the plane nosed down for descent, the vivid blues and greens of Birch Lake filled the horizon. The humidity in the air lay in a thin mist over the glassy water. Across the cove, his four-thousand-square-foot lodge stretched along the shoreline, interrupting the tundra of wild shrubs, sedges and pines.
Isolated and pristine, his corner of the thirty-five mile lake was only accessible by plane or boat. He’d ventured there twice since demolishing the original structures, but his last visit had been before he met Charlee.
The caretaker had moved into the guesthouse the year the construction completed. Thomas lived there year round, the only person who had resided on the property since Jay was six years old.
Dipping in for the landing, the floats skidded over the water’s surface, dispersing a flock of ring-necked ducks into the curling fog. When the plane drifted to a stop at the edge of his dock, he grabbed his duffle bag and guitar case and climbed out. Tony’s soft footfalls lagged behind.
The mustiness of dark rich soil mingled with nearby mint and the floral of woodland laurel, bathing his lungs. Charlee would’ve loved the authenticity of the land, and for a moment, he let himself imagine her walking along the dock with him, smiling as the scenery saturated her brilliant eyes.
Did her soul exist in an eternal place? He’d hoped so right up until Roy Oxford uttered his despicable final words. But could Jay cope with the alternative? The thought of her dwindling into an airy nothing was more than he could bear.