Total pages in book: 64
Estimated words: 63601 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 318(@200wpm)___ 254(@250wpm)___ 212(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 63601 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 318(@200wpm)___ 254(@250wpm)___ 212(@300wpm)
He seemed relieved enough to have that out of the way that I got another quick kiss. “Not a bribe, but just…”
Shrugging, Teddy looked more at ease. “I like kissing you.”
“I like any and all kisses, bribes or not.” I wasn’t going to discourage him from bribing me, though. “But I’m going to take that one as a bribe anyway because I think you’d like more information on the random people comment.”
Teddy didn’t deny being curious about my background, but he was careful. “Only if you’re comfortable sharing.”
My nosy cutie.
“If I’m not comfortable sharing, I should be keeping my hands off your ass until we’re at that point.” Communication before ass grabbing should be a reasonable limit for any couple. “I’m both, though, so we’re not going to worry.”
His quiet giggle was just distracting enough that it made my imagination try going in a different direction, but I stayed on track. “The relationships I’ve had were on the more vanilla end of the spectrum and that made it difficult. I drove them crazy being naturally more controlling and we couldn’t get on the same page with even the most basic limits conversations…even truly nonsexual stuff.”
So most of the relationships had faded fairly quickly.
“I kept the Dom stuff to myself for the most part because I wasn’t going to explain that to someone I knew would judge me negatively for it…and well…I was right about that part.” Teddy winced, and I started telling the story before he could explain I didn’t have to.
I did.
“My mother pushed me to go out with Pallen and at the time it wasn’t worth arguing with her. I was trying to keep the peace and just survive until I graduated with my bachelor’s.” Bad decision. “I figured it would be a natural transition so getting some space from them at that point wouldn’t be a big blow up.”
That hadn’t worked as planned and Teddy’s scrunched-up face said he was sympathetic about that.
“He’s a dick but it felt like there was something nicer under the surface, so we dated longer than I would have otherwise.” Sometimes I still felt like there was a real person under his façade but I wasn’t going to worry about it. “I got too comfortable and one night, after we’d been hanging out for a while, he asked if I’d ever been curious about anything kinky…so I told him about the Dom stuff and hinted around the Daddy side.”
Teddy looked so tense I paused and gave him a kiss. “Hey, no worries. It’s over now and I’m not taking everyone’s head off any longer. Remember? Someone helped point out that I was a dick.”
“You were angry.” Teddy pouted, hinting at his little side coming to the surface again. “And ignoring me.”
That was clearly the biggest sin, so I gave him another kiss. “Not any longer.”
He definitely had all of my attention.
“He seemed a bit cold about the whole thing, but within a couple of days he’d called me, screaming that I was a perv and had told everyone we know that I was kinky.” Nothing he’d said had been rational but from what I could tell I’d clearly hit some sensitive areas I couldn’t have predicated.
Teddy frowned, connecting the dots. “Was he…”
“I don’t know. I’d be more sympathetic if I’d done something wrong but he never gave me any feeling that he had issues in his past and his reaction was to do his best to blow up my life, so I don’t care.” He’d killed my sympathy when he’d called my parents trying to get them to kick me out. “He started the conversation. I was as careful as I could be without lying when I answered it. I never touched him in any way that could even be considered…dynamic. Hell, we didn’t go very far at all sexually.”
Which considering how long we’d dated probably should’ve been a red flag.
My curious Chipmunk blinked again, making me chuckle. “I don’t do casual, Chipmunk. He wasn’t serious about me and I could feel it. So no sex and no trading blow jobs or anything like that. Even if we were just vanilla dating, I wasn’t going to do anything with him while it felt like I was hiding a big part of who I was.”
“I can understand that…but not the whole screaming it everywhere part.” Frowning, he gave me another soft kiss. “If it helps, my mother was proud of you for being clear about who you are and was glad you weren’t dating him anymore. She doesn’t like his aura.”
Because she was weird but smart.
“Thank you.” Returning his kiss, I nodded. “It does help.”
It was nice to know not everyone back home was a raging lunatic.
“My father told her that talking to you about your sex life wouldn’t be appropriate, though.” Teddy shrugged as I chuckled. “It was a long debate about what to do to help.”