Total pages in book: 69
Estimated words: 64044 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 320(@200wpm)___ 256(@250wpm)___ 213(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 64044 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 320(@200wpm)___ 256(@250wpm)___ 213(@300wpm)
"It's nothing major. I caught it on a rock during the crossing."
"Then you're sleeping on the cot with your leg elevated. That's not a suggestion."
He gazes at me the way he did in the cabin when I set my conditions on the first night. Like he’d give me the world if I only ever asked for it.
"Fine," he says.
I take the floor. He hands me a sleeping bag from one of the shelves, rolled tight and vacuum-sealed. When I unroll it the insulation expands and the fabric is warmer than anything I've slept on in a long time. I stretch out against the wall opposite the cot and pull the bag up to my chin.
The fluorescent lights are too bright. Render kills them, leaving only the small emergency LED on the uplink charger, a green dot in the darkness that gives the room a faint underwater glow.
I hear him settle onto the cot. The frame creaks once under his weight and then goes quiet.
The storage unit is colder than the cabin. Harder. Less like a place and more like a container.
My brain catches the association before it can spiral. Container. Metal walls. No windows. The similarities are there if I look for them and my brain is looking because my brain is always looking now, scanning every environment for the pattern that matches the worst thing that ever happened to me.
But this container has a door I can open. Has supplies and weapons and a man on the other side of the room who gave me the car keys and the directions and the freedom to leave when I wanted to run.
The difference matters. I hold onto it.
"Render."
"Yeah."
"The town. Millhaven. You rerouted around it without even thinking about it."
He’s silent for a long moment. Right when I’m certain he isn’t going to answer me, he says, "I thought about it."
"For how long?"
"About half a second."
"What was the other option?"
"There wasn't one. A pursuit through a populated area with armed hostiles behind us isn't a calculated risk. It's a decision to treat civilian lives as acceptable loss. I don't do that."
"Does the crew?"
The question hangs in the dark. I can hear him breathing. The same controlled rhythm. Twelve to fourteen per minute.
"The crew’s made mistakes," he says finally. "Operations where the planning didn't account for everyone who'd be affected. Where people who shouldn't have been in the blast radius ended up there anyway. Dean keeps a file. Every civilian impact. Every collateral incident. He reviews it before every new operation so we remember what happens when we stop paying attention to the background."
"Does it work?"
"Most of the time. Not always." A pause. "Arrow almost quit after a job in Magnolia Ridge a while ago. A bystander took a round that was meant for a target. The woman survived. Arrow didn't sleep for three weeks. He stayed because Juno talked him through it, but he's never been the same in the field. More careful. Slower to engage. Better, honestly. The fear of it made him better."
"And you?"
"I build the digital infrastructure. I do surveillance. I handle the work that happens before and after the loud parts. The shipping container, your container, that was the first time I've been in the room when someone died."
The honesty surprises me.
"You're not what I expected," I say.
"What did you expect?"
"I’ve known you for years, but never really knew you. Ya know? I guess I expected you to be like you’ve always been. Quiet. Reserved. Something different."
"Everyone sees the version they want to see. The reliable one. The one who doesn't ask uncomfortable questions about methodology because asking them would slow things down." Another pause. "I ask them. I just do it quietly."
The green dot of the uplink charger blinks slowly in the dark. The storage unit settles around us, metal walls ticking as the temperature drops outside.
"Three days," I say. "Orchid says they might move the crew in seventy-two hours."
"I know."
"We lost the vehicle. We lost the secondary bag. We're working from a storage unit instead of a cabin. We’ve lost a lot of resources."
"Also accurate."
"And we're going to do it anyway."
"Yes."
The certainty in his voice isn't performance. It's bedrock. The same material he's been built on since before I knew him. He doesn't believe we'll succeed because he's optimistic. He believes because the alternative is leaving Poe and the crew in a hole, and that alternative doesn't exist in his operating system any more than running through Millhaven did.
I roll onto my side in the sleeping bag. The concrete is brutal beneath the thin insulation but the sleeping bag itself is warm and the dry clothes feel like a luxury I didn't earn.
"Render."
"Yeah."
"When this is over. When we get them out and Serafina is done and everyone is safe. I'm going to have questions about everything Poe kept from me. The operations. The mistakes. The file Dean keeps. All of it. I need to understand what I'm choosing to be part of if I'm going to stay."