Total pages in book: 119
Estimated words: 113710 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 569(@200wpm)___ 455(@250wpm)___ 379(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 113710 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 569(@200wpm)___ 455(@250wpm)___ 379(@300wpm)
I freeze, certain the fear rolling through me has me mistaking her husky whimpers for words. But then I see Lucia’s stunned expression, and I know she heard it too.
It’s the first time she’s spoken to me. Ever. The first time I’ve heard her voice directed at me, and the first time she’s reached out for me with words instead of hands.
With shock silencing me, Lucia joins us in the oversized shower. Her clothes are instantly soaked, but she doesn’t care. “It’s okay, sweetheart. Daddy’s here with you.” Cupping water in her hands, she pours it gently on Camille’s neck. “It’s just water. It’ll help you feel better.”
Camille’s eyes gradually flutter open, glassy and unfocused, before she weakly reaches for Lucia. The anger I shoved to the background of my mind vanishes when Lucia inches closer without hesitation. She supports Camille through this with both her hands and her heart.
As I watch my daughter and the only woman I fully trust with her, all the controversies of the past several weeks fade. Anger overwhelmed me tonight because I tried to hide my fear behind it. I wasn’t angry at Lucia. I was fucking terrified of losing her, and of someone hurting her so deeply that it would change who she is.
I should have known better.
My horrid show of cowardice tonight hurt Lucia, yet here she is, soaked to the skin, taking care of my daughter like she’s her own.
“Dante,” Lucia says, pulling me back to the moment. “We need to wet her hair.”
Nodding, I gently slant Camille’s head back so the water runs over her scalp. She whimpers again and clutches at my shirt, but when I press my lips to her forehead, ignoring the heat stinging my mouth, they simmer to husky breaths.
“You’re okay,” I remind her. “Daddy’s here.”
When Lucia’s cheeks flush during my last sentence, I look down at her. Her smile is for the archives. It’s the smile someone gives when witnessing a miracle. I smile right back because that’s exactly what’s happening.
I love my family. I’d die for them. But this… this needs to be treasured. Pursuing a relationship with Lucia might cost me everything, but you’re not born into whatever we’re building. You create it.
We stay huddled together in the shower for minutes, though it feels more like hours. Steam rises around us as the steady flow of water drowns out everything except Camille’s soft breaths and Lucia’s whispered affirmations.
Slowly, painfully so, the heat radiating from Camille’s skin diminishes, and her body relaxes enough for the tension in my shoulders to loosen.
Lucia brushes wet strands of hair off Camille’s forehead before checking her temperature again.
“She’s cooling down.” She peers up at me, her expression shifting from concerned to relieved. “That’s good. Really good.”
“Thank god.”
When our eyes meet and hold, the world narrows to just her and me, with the child unknowingly tethering us together. Her clothes cling to her body, and her hair is flat and lifeless from both the water and the wig she wore earlier, but she’s so fucking beautiful that my chest aches.
“I’m sorry,” I say before I can stop myself. The words come out rough but honest. “For what I said earlier. For yelling at you.” I push this past what happened tonight. “For everything.”
Shock filters across Lucia’s face. It could be hurt or perhaps even disbelief, but she doesn’t pull away like she usually does when things become too personal. She just nods before she lowers her eyes to Camille, and the fondness shining in her eyes doubles.
Chapter 32
Lucia
It took several tense hours for Camille’s fever to finally go down with medicine and water therapy, and even longer for Dante to feel comfortable enough to let her out of his sight. By the time a second doctor gave a cautious nod of approval that she was back at full health, I felt like my legs were made of heavy wet sand.
Although I’m seconds from collapse, I wouldn’t trade a second of the past twenty-four hours. Hearing Camille call Dante Daddy was one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever witnessed in my life.
I’d give up sleep for a year if it guaranteed I’d experience it again.
Now, hours later, after eating the food a maid left in a room that’s far too luxurious for little ol’ me and showering until the steam made me woozy, I’m finally getting ready to rest.
I doubt sleep will come easily. The Caruso compound is a grand palace with soft lighting and expensive furniture, but it reminds me too much of the home I grew up in to feel comfortable here.
Home? Ha! My childhood residence wasn’t a home. It was more like a prison. It just had fancy chandeliers and antiques I wouldn’t dare touch if I wanted to sit comfortably for the following week.
This place feels more welcoming, and the people here don’t look at me like I’m a stain on the family name, but I can’t help but wonder if that sense of homeyness has less to do with the expensive furnishings and more to do with Dante.